To make a long story short, I was at a formal event recently and had to rent a suit. Finding a jacket that fit over my belly but not too wide for my shoulders, was a challenge. (Watching the guy fitting me while this was an eye opener and so hot. LOL!) I don't know what size it was, but the waist was *tight* and I left it open after the dinner. They also "threw in" suspenders because when I wore the pants under my belly it "ruined the line" and bunched the front of the leg. I haven't been fat that long and have never worn pants up like that, but dang, it was comfortable.
But I don't think I'm THAT fat to have to do that all the time. I'm tempted, but I'm not that fat... yet?
A friend suggested that instead of renting (my argument was I don't go to formal stuff like, ever, and I could be a very different size by the time I go to another one) that I should check out some thrift stores for jackets and see if I can get lucky. So I tried that yesterday.
I had a hoodie on, and assumed if a jacket fit over that, I would have room for a few more pounds in the waist. I went to the XL section for jackets. I put on a few. NONE would close. They all fit as the one in the store did. With the hoodie they wouldn't close, and I'm damn sure without it I would have had the same tight fit around my belly.
Now, this was already freakin hot. I was trying not to freeze on the spot to "take a moment" to let it sink in, because the place was busy and other men were scouting for clothes around me. I pulled it a couple more times to try to button it and if I really yanked it maybe it would close? Or, pop the buttons. But I was in public and had to behave. I could feel my face turn red, that was amazing.
So I put the XLs back.
You have to realize at this point, since 2019 I have gone from wearing size SM, to M, to L, to XL. I would put one item down and just move down the rack to the next size up. Well, I've run out of rack. There WERE NO 2XLs. All the sizes, I noticed, for all the clothes, ended at XL.
:O
Um...
I looked down at my fat belly, and had a little conversation with myself. In all honesty, I really don't think I'm THAT fat. I know a lot of people talk about denial, or not fully understanding as the body changes, but I look in the mirror when I'm naked and I don't look that fat to me. Some clothes that are tighter make me look bigger, sure, but... 2XL??
All of my other shirts are XL and fit properly. Got a new henley and two modern fit Ts at another store recently, all XL and even a little room to grow.
Now I'm sure it's because suit jackets are structured more and don't have much flexibility. But I DO plan on getting bigger, and I can't help but to keep repeating to myself, "I'm running out of rack." It's pulling SO many feelings out of me. A little scared and shocked, definitely proud and very happy with my size, and gotta admit, turned on.
After breaking my knee in the summer (a major reason for this most recent gain and tip officially into fat life), I'm finally back at the gym to build back some of my muscle and then some, do my physio and strengthen the legs again, and gain some more size. But I also want more fat, more belly, more weight and jiggle and heft.
I'll have to check out more thrift stores around town to see if any have larger sizes. But I'm kind of absolutely freaking loving this mind blowing experience and needed to share.
Also: bf parked the car too close to the wall in the garage and I'll blame that hoodie extra layer again, but I could feel my back and belly slide along both surfaces to get in. Ten more pounds and I would have been stuck? :O
But... I'm not THAT fat yet, am I?? I need to eat and think about this some more.
But I don't think I'm THAT fat to have to do that all the time. I'm tempted, but I'm not that fat... yet?
A friend suggested that instead of renting (my argument was I don't go to formal stuff like, ever, and I could be a very different size by the time I go to another one) that I should check out some thrift stores for jackets and see if I can get lucky. So I tried that yesterday.
I had a hoodie on, and assumed if a jacket fit over that, I would have room for a few more pounds in the waist. I went to the XL section for jackets. I put on a few. NONE would close. They all fit as the one in the store did. With the hoodie they wouldn't close, and I'm damn sure without it I would have had the same tight fit around my belly.
Now, this was already freakin hot. I was trying not to freeze on the spot to "take a moment" to let it sink in, because the place was busy and other men were scouting for clothes around me. I pulled it a couple more times to try to button it and if I really yanked it maybe it would close? Or, pop the buttons. But I was in public and had to behave. I could feel my face turn red, that was amazing.
So I put the XLs back.
You have to realize at this point, since 2019 I have gone from wearing size SM, to M, to L, to XL. I would put one item down and just move down the rack to the next size up. Well, I've run out of rack. There WERE NO 2XLs. All the sizes, I noticed, for all the clothes, ended at XL.
:O
Um...
I looked down at my fat belly, and had a little conversation with myself. In all honesty, I really don't think I'm THAT fat. I know a lot of people talk about denial, or not fully understanding as the body changes, but I look in the mirror when I'm naked and I don't look that fat to me. Some clothes that are tighter make me look bigger, sure, but... 2XL??
All of my other shirts are XL and fit properly. Got a new henley and two modern fit Ts at another store recently, all XL and even a little room to grow.
Now I'm sure it's because suit jackets are structured more and don't have much flexibility. But I DO plan on getting bigger, and I can't help but to keep repeating to myself, "I'm running out of rack." It's pulling SO many feelings out of me. A little scared and shocked, definitely proud and very happy with my size, and gotta admit, turned on.
After breaking my knee in the summer (a major reason for this most recent gain and tip officially into fat life), I'm finally back at the gym to build back some of my muscle and then some, do my physio and strengthen the legs again, and gain some more size. But I also want more fat, more belly, more weight and jiggle and heft.
I'll have to check out more thrift stores around town to see if any have larger sizes. But I'm kind of absolutely freaking loving this mind blowing experience and needed to share.
Also: bf parked the car too close to the wall in the garage and I'll blame that hoodie extra layer again, but I could feel my back and belly slide along both surfaces to get in. Ten more pounds and I would have been stuck? :O
But... I'm not THAT fat yet, am I?? I need to eat and think about this some more.
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